I think I know why they bother me so much. Its because I want what the girls always get in the end. A boy. : /
I'd like to have a menz. To feel the giddy thrill of seeing them. To feel safe. To be loved like that. Them having a charming British accent won't hurt either.
But those damn movies! They always make me feel sad because of a) sad things happen in the movie and I cry like a weenie! and/or b) I feel a little depressed because of how old I am and I have still yet to go on anything more than a first date.
I just can't help thinking that when I watch the girls in the movies, 'That's me! I'm like that. Smart and funny and attractive (or at least not terribly offensive to the eyes). Where is my charmingly befuddled English man, chasing me down?'
Then I feel like poo-poo doo.
I know that I don't need a boy to be happy (I gave someone the same advice today actually). BUT DAMN IT, I WANT ONE. Badly.
fuck.
16 years ago